I often look back at what I’ve accomplished in the past years and reflect on where I’m currently at in life. Some days I’m proud, other days I feel like I barely accomplished anything. There are even days where I feel like I’ve been regressing, pushed back to the beginnings. It’s as if I started on the fast river and recently have ended up in a mountain lake with no way out. All I can do is row, but all I do is end up moving in circles, always coming back to the starting point. The more I row, the more I stay in the same place. When I feel that way, it all seems like I’ve lost all Will to move forward. I’ve given up and accepted the current state as a permanent one – a state that can’t be changed.
Recently I’ve realized that I’m a planner. I like thinking about strategies and putting plans in place, but for some reason I’ve had trouble with executing. I’ll come up with great ideas, plan it out, but in the end I won’t act upon it. Perhaps it’s because I spent so much time planning it. Or perhaps it’s just my nature, my shy personality that’s holding me back, as if life and business projects were a cute girl you don’t have the guts to go talk to as a young teen. What’s holding us back, really? Maybe we just don’t have the will to go and move forward. Or perhaps it’s because as we grow older we become more cautious. However, when you think about it, if anything, we should push harder and move faster as we grow older – time is slowly running out. Why be lethargic and complacent? Look yourself in the mirror and slap yourself in the face if needed, but just stop this nonsense and step it up. Act now. Always think before going forward, but move forward.
That’s one reason I’ve given myself this one year ultimatum to move forward, change, and make a difference. At the time I’m writing this, I’m embarking in week 5 of this one year epic journey. This will be an awesome year, you can count on it. I’m no longer staying still, that’s a certainty.